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In Memory of Michael James

This page is dedicated to the memory of my baby boy, Michael James, who was still-born January 23rd 1990


This is a poem that I wrote shortly after losing Michael:
To Michael James
Our darling baby boy,
We named you Michael James,
We love you so very dearly -
Your mummy and your daddy,
And your brother Christopher too.
You never will be forgotten,
We will always think of you.
You looked so angelic,
Lying there as if you were only sleeping -
But you were never to wake up,
Never meant to laugh or cry.
You grew inside of me,
You knew that you were loved,
Cared for, wanted and happy.
We love you so very, very much,
And we'll never, ever forget uou,
God bless you, our baby boy
Michael James.
This is a letter that I wrote to Michael in 2000 to help me to deal with some of pain I felt:
To Michael,
I miss you very much - no-one will ever know how much I miss you.
All the things a baby does I'll never, ever see.  I've never heard you cry or laugh.  I'll never watch you growing up, learning to talk, taking your first steps, learning to dress yourself, your first day at school.
I'll never be able to cuddle you, or comfort you when you need it.  I love you very, very much.
I would give up everything I have just to have you here with me.
All my love,

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